Tormented No More!
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Ernest Angley Ministries,
My family history is full of all kinds of mental
illness and diseases of the brain and nervous system.
Just some of them include epilepsy, narcolepsy,
Guillain-Barre, Alzheimer’s disease, bipolar
disorder, manic depressive disorder and depression.
I had my first episode of depression when I was
16; and over the next 40 years, I had several bouts
of it. They would usually last several weeks. When
an episode occurred, it was tormenting and terrifying;
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and it is hard to describe what it’s like when
you’re living in that. You feel as though it will
never end, and you will never be happy again. It
feels like you are being pulled into a black, heavy,
bottomless pit; and there is a sense of terrible pressure
around your head. I would feel like I could
not survive for another minute let
alone a whole day.
The depression also causes
thoughts of suicide. You don’t
want to kill yourself, but the
thought never goes away. It
hounds you day after day, and
it wears you down. I prayed to
the Lord for decades. I knew
there had to be deliverance
because His Word says there is. I
just hoped and hoped that somehow
God would make a way for me to be free. I
was prayed over for healing and deliverance several
times down through the years, but my depression
still came back.
My mother committed suicide in 2000. Although
we were apart most of my life, her suicide shocked
me and shook me to my core. The following year
was very difficult. I began to lose hope that I
would survive; and I would think, “How long will
I last the next time depression comes?”
Through a miraculous chain of events, God
brought me to this Jesus ministry; but by that
time, I had become very cynical. I had seen so
many TV ministries blow themselves up, and I
had been prayed over for depression and suicidal
thoughts before; but there was never any healing
or deliverance. I didn’t know anything about this
ministry when I first started attending the services,
so I just watched and listened. Over a period of
several months, I had a glimmer of hope that
maybe God had brought me here and would
heal me. God knew that I had cried, prayed and
waited for healing for over 40 years.
During the first few months, God healed my
neck and restored my range of motion. Then He
healed my legs as I sat listening to the music in
a service. I am a nurse, so I also struggled with
doubt because most of my patients don’t get
well; but God was increasing my faith and getting
me ready to receive healing for my mind.
God also showed me that no matter how far back
mental illness reached in my family history, I
didn’t have to live with it because He is the God
of all generations.
When I went before Rev. Angley for prayer, I
cried as I told him my family history and asked
if God was really going to deliver me this time.
I felt like if it didn’t happen, it was never going
to happen. He was so kind and tender as he said,
“Of course, He will.” I was amazed at his faith.
It seemed it would have been so astounding to
him if God did not deliver me.
Rev. Angley prayed with me; and initially, I
didn’t feel anything, but I told the Lord in my
mind that I wasn’t going to go by my feelings.
Then he said the Lord showed him there was
something like a cap on my head, and I knew
God had moved. Over the years, I couldn’t feel
God’s love and presence in a church service like
others could. I felt like there was a dome over
my head, so nothing could get in. I hadn’t shared
that with anyone, but God knew.
Over the next few days, I got stronger and
stronger; and over the next few weeks, I began
sensing God’s presence in a way I had never
experienced in my life. Finally, I knew I was
loved by God, and His peace and love grew
greater and greater in my heart and mind. He
filled me with such reassurance and comfort.
I am so thankful for this ministry. I can’t begin
to describe how hard it was to keep hope for so
many years. I just want to tell people never to
give up. It doesn’t matter how many generations
of sickness are in your family or what anyone
might say; never give up on God. He wants to
heal and deliver His people.
VICKI HOWLETT
CUYAHOGA FALLS, OHIO, USA
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Seek, and ye shall find.
( Matthew 7:7)
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