A Force That Beckons
I fully expected to hear words of judgment. !at’s the only response I could
perceive God would give when my $rst marriage fell apart. I cried out in a
moment that was equal parts anger, fear, grief, despair, hopelessness and rage.
“If I’m going to hell for this, then why are you letting me live? Let’s just get
this over with! But God, if this divorce is sending me to hell then I will walk
into the %ames praising your name because I don’t know what else to do!”
As my tears %owed, a thought — spoken in a still, small voice — blasted
through my grief. “Would I let you enter hell’s %ames with my name on your
It was in that moment I learned grace in a way that can’t be taught in a book.
All my head knowledge convinced me I was disquali$ed. I thought I could stop
grace. I was wrong. You see, grace is a force, a holy, powerful force that beckons.
!e moment God responded to me with beckoning grace, I knew He was not
done with me. Despair was replaced with hope, and my lips began to confess,
repent and allow His unstoppable grace and light to pierce my darkness.
pg. 25 — lightandlifemagazine.com
By Brett Heintzman